Okay..
So, I feel like I need to say a few things..
I've been going through the hardest time in my life right about now.. It's so hard to explain.. But, I'll just leave it at that I'm just one confused mother fucker.. And, by going through this shit, I've realized alot of things..
One) I have got THE best friends anyone could ever ask for.
Two) Modest Mouse is the cure for everything.. Well, at least until I start thinking again.. But, Isaac Brock is my hero and he's magic. Haha.
Three) School fucking sucks, but if I didn't have my head so far up certain people's asses, then I would have done alot better.. And I know that I'm better than that.
Four) All I really need in life is my family, my bestfriends, my music, my Black Jack II, and McDonalds Sweet Tea. Lmfao.
Now, with all of that said.. I have a few "I'm sorry"'s..
Mommy - I'm sorry that my grades aren't good enough and I make you feel bad for meaningless shit. You deserve better. I love you, mama.
Michaela - I'm just straight-up sorry.. For everything. I love you.
Brad - I'm sorry that it seems like I'm not good enough.. I know you love me, or at least you say you do.. I love you too, darling. With all of my heart..
Emily - I'm sorry I haven't been there lately.. I feel horrible about that.. But, I have a few things I need to clear up for myself in order to be there for you.. It seems like you are happy, lately. And I could not be any more excited for you. You are my bestfriend and I love you so much. Please forgive me, dear.
Michael - I'm sorry the way we ended happened like it did. I think I owe you the biggest apology.. No; I KNOW I owe you the biggest apology. You are a great person; I've always thought that.. I treated you badly, and just knowing that I had something to do with hurting someone kills me. I miss you. And your family. And I REALLY want us to be friends.. You're a sweet person. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I'm so sorry, Michael.. For everything.. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me..
Everyone else - I'm starting over.. And I'm so sorry. I'm changing. And this new person is going to be amazing. This I promise you.
I don't know how much longer I'll get on this site, but I know that you guys will probably read this..
Thanks so much.
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